Saved by a drugie

I am using drugie as a term to mean somebody that uses hard narcotics but is not an addict. Is there an official term for that? Comment if there is one. High enough (on Absolut Vodka) that I am looking at my keyboard to make sure that I am typing the correct thing. I am … Continue reading Saved by a drugie

Feelings after vodka

That first sip that goes down your throat, feels a little uncomfortable and irritating. It stings but you don't care because you are waiting for the reward. That first sip hits to specifically remind you of why you should take the next sip. It's a tipsy wave that comes and goes in almost a second … Continue reading Feelings after vodka

Another weird day

The hormonal shit happening in my body is on a whole new level. I snoozed my alarm clock for a bloody three hours. Thank goodness I did not have any work backlog. I do have a presentation tomorrow. The point of waking up early was to go through my documentation. I have to make sure … Continue reading Another weird day

HER

So, we gotta talk about HER because it is a requirement that I study and I can’t do that until I write this because she has been occupying the better part of my head lately. She is one attractive human who possesses beauty undreamt of. I would randomly see around and thought “she is quite … Continue reading HER

Match day

It's match day. I got my water filled balloons, I got my tits and I got Kyllan. We are in my lab and we have moved most of the stuff to create space for the long awaited battle. We have our battle music "Eye of the tiger" playing in the background. I got my sporty … Continue reading Match day

Demo-gorgon

My anxiety has shown its head again. My permanent state of worry and nervousness with the possibility of a panic attack is not good for me right now. I need my sanity. Anxiety has metamorphosed into my own pet demo-gorgon. My demons are not my caterpillars anymore but my butterflies. The caresses of my demons … Continue reading Demo-gorgon

A little feeling….

Seeing you is always euphoric. You elicit all these feelings in me that I prefer to keep buried deep down where they can never be found. Feelings that occasionally show when I have drowned myself in a bit of alcohol and all the concrete and blocks that make my very highly erected walls shatter into … Continue reading A little feeling….

Time to chat with my demons

So, I feel like drowning myself in water. Not deep water, shallow water. I love being underwater. Shit looks so cool under here.” I wanna drown just a little. I do not want to die. I like to think that the universe still needs me alive. I just want to feel something to remind my … Continue reading Time to chat with my demons

Falling in love

So, we were at this really big house with a lot of expensive shit. There was a party of some guy with pink hair and a body that could kill a bevy of dames. It was the first time Sophie had attended a party and I was feeling a little bit guilty for introducing her … Continue reading Falling in love

Meet Kyllan

“What the fudge! I cannot find your chip. I need to find it. Where the hell did I leave it? Kitchen? Bedroom? Bathroom? Toilet?” I stand in the middle of the room looking around wondering where I could have left the chip. Everything is attached to him except the chip. All I want is to … Continue reading Meet Kyllan